The Lifestyle

Before you get all excited, the title is not referring to that "Lifestyle". But more so, the commitment I am making to my new lifestyle. My current weight loss journey has to be more than a temporary adjustment in how I do things. As I am sure anyone who has tried to drop the pounds has discovered, it is easier to gain the weight back vs the hard work of taking it off. That is why this healthy eating, walking almost daily and actually reading the calorie information change I have undergone will have to be my new normal. Like for forever.

It is an interesting mind trip, realizing the all too frequent trips to the local fast food joint and eating whatever I want out of the vending machine have come to an end. But it is for the best. I have not been healthy per se in many years, and for once I am the driving force behind my change. I have had a few people ask me what my secret is... It really is not a secret. Hard work, working out frequently and not eating like it is my main job in life. The true "Secret" if one existed would be the sheer will power and determination to stick to it. Like I have said before, no magic motivation dust has been discovered. This is purely the desire to be better.

Now that the healthy stuff is covered, onto the meh. I have had a day of stresspression that not even my two-mile walk has vanquished. It has been a while since the depression has visited me. Unlike past times when I would curl up with it like a favorite childhood blanket and snuggle in for the long haul... It is pissing me off.

I guess that in its own right is an achievement. Hopefully a good night's sleep will be the reset I need, and I can be back to my annoyingly perky and cheerful self. I know I am on the right path, but right now the path feels a bit lonely and I miss spooning and waking up next to someone. All too often, the thoughts of wanting another kid has visited my mind. Truthfully, I don't think it is in the cards for me. I could not currently support another child, and I just don't see myself magically meeting someone and everything working out that way. While I am sticking to my resolution of staying single, some days it's harder than others. Mix that with my never ending aging process and being 35, well I just have to find a way to get over that idea and recognize it for the half brained fantasy it is and enjoy the time I get with the tiny human I do have. That is enough pity party and update for one night. Sorry for being a day late. One of my friends I haven't seen in over a year asked to stop by and have an adult beverage and catch up. It was good seeing him, and I do need to be more social. Thanks for checking out the blog. Bishop :(: