Magic Motivation Dust

Ever have one of those "Light bulb" moments, as Gru from Despicable Me would say. I had one of those when I stumbled upon this photo on Instagram. Go ahead, take a moment and really marinate on those words and see what memories or ideas populate that mind of yours for a moment.

I have the words of one of Old Lyme PD's finest that often live rent-free in my head. "Lots of people like you, but they think you are lazy." In the beautiful ignorance of youth, I went with the option to just let this hurt and mentally defend myself. Over the years I have been a frequent visitor to this moment in time and every time still defensive.

I have absolutely had some amazing moments of intensity where I have truly shined like a diamond. But it is time to own that they were just that, moments of intensity. I have lacked intensity, I have consistently lacked intensity. For as many moments of greatness I can remember, equally moments where I lack consistency come to mind.

Now, I could sulk and mope around for days, lamenting my life of failure sprinkled with awesome. But I don't have time to take a journey into depression and self loathing. Why? Because what is done is done and no amount of cruising the boulevard of broken dreams will change the past. So why take that trip?

What I can do is recognize my shortcomings and move forward with this new understanding. I feel like this is the only productive choice. This my friends is what we refer to as growth. It is also an authentic proud moment for me where I can prove to myself that all of this reading and self focus is productive.

May of us spend too much time waiting for the magic motivation fairy to sprinkle us with her magic dust, so we can be functional human beings. Well that bitch is always late, and I still haven't seen her, so I have had to take matters into my own hands. Good habits and productivity are forged with a strong will and dedication to that mindset.

My will is stronger these days, and I am writing a new chapter in the book of Bishop. This time less tears and more sweating, reading., pondering and ultimately action. I refuse to live life under the same shitty autopilot full of hopes, dreams and fast food. I truly am shunning old habits and self sabotage this year. It has NEVER served me well, so why continue my subscription to failure? Bishop :(: