Drinking Poison

This saying has been floating around the old brain pan for a while now. You see, I have plenty of people in life I could be mad at. Or at the very least, I could blame for piss poor life situations. But at the end of the day, dwelling on it would only cause me suffering. That is where the drinking poison part truly comes into play. Going around shouting that you have been wronged only expends energy dwelling on the issue. It does nothing to solve it. We meet people in this life that end up being poison for us. Holding onto anger keeps the hurt alive and in turn keeps whatever human poison that ills you front and center in the mind. Now you tell me how does that actually benefit you?

I feel like this ties into it nicely. So if we reframe the injustice that has been done to you, can you think back to a choice you made that bit you in the ass? For example, if someone took you for a ride financially, emotionally whatever the case might be, you at some point probably heard that little voice in the background telling "Don't do it dumbass!". I can think of plenty of times when I ignored that voice because I wanted to be the knight in shining armor or help out a friend.

People can and will take you for a ride, but the trick is you have to be a willing participant in some way for it to work. We have to accept shitty behavior or really lack some boundaries for them to truly "Get you". While I accept that this is not a one size fits all situation, and you might be trying to justify how I am wrong, right now to make the story fit the narrative you need it to. But I bet you, if step outside your own bullshit for just a few minutes, you too can see the moment that you played yourself. A very easy test of friendship is to tell someone no and see if they still come around or better yet are there when you need help next time. Instead of living the I got fucked over mentality AKA the victim mentality, I invite you to try a new possibility. Actually look at the situation and find the lesson to be learned. If you can turn whatever fucked up event it is into a lesson and use it as a learning point to avoid other future mistakes, it ceases to be poison. Seriously though playing back memories of someone who treated you like shit, broke your heart or took you for a ride only serves to keep the memories and injustice alive. It will eat at you, and it will keep dragging you down. Living in the past only serves to cloud the future. Honestly, if you view your current situation as the result of people screwing you, you need to wake up and take accountability. The deflection of responsibility that you need to take into life will not promote change. It will only serve to keep you stuck in the shit longer. How many relatively successful people do you see spouting off shit about how they have been wronged? Really think about that. I have a list of piss poor mistakes that I am truly not proud of. Most of those events actually involve other people and me side stepping common sense to the point that it hurt me. But even if I made of list of these people right now and posted it, it would not change the past. They don't deserve my consideration in the present enough to make that list. I get that you might have a face or two on the mind right now while reading this. Moving on can be hard, but it's harder if you don't allow yourself to do it. Sometimes you have to purge not only memories but keepsakes and if need be places you used to hang out. I have a healthy list of people that shall forever be blocked and would not get the time of day from me if I were to see them in public. It is ok to cut people off and move on. In fact, it is often needed to end the cycle of drinking poison. Bishop :(: